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Friday, July 25, 2008

July 23rd - Just Another Year But Yet Its Still The Same

...*July 23rd*...

..Just another year for me..

I didnt celebrate my birthday but I did spend my day with my choir students @ RTB. We had the rehearsals for the Final Anti-Drugs Choir Competition held on the 24th July 2008 from morning till late noon. Was pretty tiring and with my health condition which was not really good, it made me felt much much terrible.

We were so hungry that we decided to have lunch with the choir students at Yayasan Food Court. It was fun walking on foot from RTB to Yayasan with 20 students ranged between 7 - 9 years of age. Treat them at the Food Court and had some Fun Donuts. The kids enjoyed it so much, so did myself and my two other colleagues. Was pretty chaotic but was a memorable one! Imagined, being with the kids around. Hehe. It was cute! Hehehe. It was once again the best moment that not all could ever experienced.

Right after lunch, we went back to RTB and I met two of my online friends (Brunei Local Artists) namely Aziz and Ak Amilin. Was nice meeting them. We had this "business" to look forward to *hehe* Hope it'll work. It will be FUN! FUN! FUN! Insya-ALLAH. As for the rehearsals, it went well and from there I cud already see the "winner" for the competition and my guess was right. Hehehe. The rehearsals ended around 4pm and we went back to school. Everyone was tired.

As soon as I reached home, I had my shower and went to sleep. I woke up arnd 9pm, remembering that I had to get some breads, eggs, mayo and tuna for the kids' breakfast the next morning. And when I was about to leave, someone rang the doorbell. My dad opened the door and told me that Auntie Sham came.

Auntie Sham is Mulah Mirul's mother (Mulah was someone that I loved with all my heart but GOD loves him more). That was a real surprised! I almost cried. This was the first time that she actually dropped by and came into my house with her daughter, Sa'datul, maid and driver. I was speechless and was holding back my tears. I didnt wanna cry. She has never forgotten my birthday since Mulah passed away )'= that was in 2002.

Every year since then, she never failed to remember and has always give me sumthin on my birthday. Not just my birthday, but in any other formal or informal occasions, she never fails to forget me )'= Its really sumthin pricelss that I dun ever really think I cud ever let go )'= Ive always cried on my birthday eve, wishing and hoping that Mulah was around on my birthday. So much memories that was yet to be fulfilled but I know deep in my heart that "the wish and the hope" will never happen cause its one IMPOSSIBLE mission to be accomplished )'=

Since Ive lost Mulah and with so many heartbreaks, Ive always wondered if I ever will find someone that can really love me for me and accept me as I am )'= I dont really know if there is really A MAN that can really love me as much as Mulah did.

Brown Eyes by Destiny's Child

Secret Garden by Bruce Springsteen

Out of Reach by Gabrielle

These used to be our fave songs and Ive been listening to it since my birthday eve. Ive cried the whole night and I know it was wrong. But sometimes I just cant really help it. I still have the poem he wrote for me )'= (will share it in my next post, Insya-ALLAH)

*Al-Fatihah*

In Loving Memory
of
Ak. Amirul Hisham @ Hasan Mubarak bin Pg Hj Hashim
..May he rest in peace and you'll always be in my heart..
Born: 10th May 1983
Died: 28th June 2002