My Confession

I have a confession to make. One that concerns you. I've been hiding something from you. Something that I've kept so long. Too long that it is worth nothing now.

I concealed it somewhere. Somewhere so deep. That when I tried to claw it out before. I only made it sink two more feet.

This thing I hid from you. You never realized it was there. This fragile thing you see. Had always been sitting here.

I finally dug it out. I cleansed it as much as I could. I even fixed its' faults. And made it welcoming too.

I doubt it matters that I have it. I have more doubts that you remember. How foolish was I to think you'd look for it. Despite that fact you've never acknowledge it.

I'll let you guess what it is. Something you promised me before. Something you gave me. And stole it right back. Before I had the chance to give you yours.

Can you guess what I went through. To bring it back to you. To bring this little thing. That I've kept hidden from you.

It needs some repairs. I've dropped it along the way. It may have some jagged edges. But I still carried them anyways.

These dirtied nails that clawed my way through. These stains on my clothes are proof I meant it for you. These tiny fragments you see cut inside are only the small things I've sacrificed.

This is my confession. Are you aware of its cry. The faintest sound from you makes it race for the finish line. Please accept my benevolence gift. Before I it becomes a sorrowful goodbye.

One Moment With You

You're the only reason I keep living each day.

You're the only one who helps me find my way.

Sometimes I don't know what I would do without you by my side.

Sometimes I think I might have just laid down and died.

But then I look and I see your smiling face.

But that joy only comes and for a moment, takes my sorrows place.

August 18th - Happy Birthday Pauda!

Happy Birthday Pauda, Mohammad Bin Hj Tuah

(Mom's brother)

Semoga Panjang Umur dan DiMurahkan Rezeki Selalu. Amin.

From Family of Baitul Ajwa

xoxo

August 21st - Mini Birthday Celebration for Nephew Wall-e!

Happy 5tth Birthday Wall-e!

It was a last minute celebration. Wall-e iski sangat sudah wanna have his birthday cake tadi, so my Abang went for a last minute shopping.

We had kolo mee, BBQ chicken and bread butter pudding. Some cakes too. Was a simple one. Will make another one soon.

I didnt take much pictures tadi. Was too tired. Plus the lighting nda lawa. So malas jadinya. Hehehe.

Once again, Happy 5th Birthday Wall-e!

Love Love Love!

..xoxo..

August 19th - They Love Me, Dont YOU? (= *sweet*

Sometimes things don't work out exactly like we plan

Sometimes you have to take what is in your own two hands

Sometimes people expect too much and feel the end is near

Sometimes people want to go and this is what I fear:

I fear you will go away and leave me all alone

I fear that you will leave me here with no one to call my own

Then again I must remember its not all about me

Other times I must remember:

"Its the Way its meant to be"

For now and future times, you can't always be here

You can't always be by my side

So now you know how I feel I need to know how you feel for me

But then again I must remember:

"ITS THE WAY ITS MEANT TO BE"