My Heart Aches!

My heart aches when I talk to you. My heart aches when I don’t hear from you. My heart aches when I long for you. I don’t know why. You’ve taken over my thoughts I can’t explain. Far away I want you close by.

..I miss your embrace..

..Holding you close..

..My heart aches..

Once Upon A Time

Sometimes I find myself thinking of you more than I should but I wont stop myself even if I could.

Thinking about how I wish I could feel your kiss again, your warmth and your presence making me happy.

I see you and I want to show you how I feel. I want to hold you and show you what we had was really remembered.

You were there through the good and bad. You were there if I was mad or sad because I could always count on you to make me smile.

When you act like there is nothing between us, it's just you in denial but the truth is no matter what you still have such an impact on me.

It just took me a while to see that there's still a place for you in my heart whenever we decide to begin a new start.

One Day

I wish you could look inside my heart one day. See how much it's been torn and repaired. And how it beats as you sooth all my pains away.

I wish you could look deep into my eyes. And make all the wishes in the world. I'll try to make them come true. As long as you'll one day be here with me.

Or at times of need, I've proved to be here. Not because I have to but because you're special.

So I'll make this simple. Short and Sweet.

Your not like others.

You almost mean the world to me.

Out Of Need or Choice?

At last the question found it’s voice,

“Are you with me out of need, or choice?”

As he looked into her eyes, he fought with fate and truth and lies and seeking answers deep within. He wondered if he could begin and so the moment paused until he felt his life was standing still. And when at last the clock moved on, he found her voice for so long gone and eye to eye began to speak. As a single fear ran down her cheek, he told her what he thought she knew,

“It’s my heart’s choice, to be here, with you.

August 20th - The Moment I Missed - Solemnisation Day for My 2nd Cousin @ Kg Tamoi Tengah

*Our OLD House*

Danial *thinking*

*2nd Cousin's House*

*2nd Cousin's Hubby on his Becha ride*

*Danial & Nazri*

*Sekolah Rendah Haji Tarif*

*My Grandma & Akma on Becha ride* Hehe

*Bu CT & Akma & Sis & Cousins on their way back to the parking area*

*Lovely 1st Cousins: Adib, Danial, Nazri & Yumni*
*Bu CT, Akma, Bu Incan, Adib, Danial, Nazri*

The above pics (which Ive stolen from my bro's blog http://www.edd208.blogspot.com/) reminded me of how much Ive missed my "Kampong" life *sighs* Somehow, I regretted for not attending the event after seeing my lil cousins happy faces! I guess Ive missed alot of fun times with my family cause I wasn't in the good mood to go down Kampong Ayer, thinking of how HOT it was gonna be (bad me!)

I used to be one the Kampong Tamoi Tengah residents since the day I was born till 1990, when we moved out to Perpindahan Lambak Kanan. And now, its been 18 years! Time flies so fast *sighs* And now I felt Ive missed alot things that I shouldn't have been missing.

I should start to learn to APPRECIATE the MOMENT/S I have NOW before I start to REGRET.

So do you :)

..I LOVE MY FAMILY..

August 23rd Birthday Celebrants!

To My Beloved Friends

.Wana Ariffin.

.Leah Momin.

.Huraizah Ahmad.

Best wishes to all of you.

Long live and may happiness be with you always.

Amin.

..xoxo..

My Desire "Nissan Intima"

So In Love eh! Wanna get this! Love the interior! Love the colour! Love everythin abt it!

Song Im In Love With Now "I Stay In Love With You" By Mariah Carey

Oh baby Baby, I stay in love with you

Dying inside cause I can't stand it

Make or break up

Can't take this madness

We don't even really know why

All I know is baby I try and try so hard

To keep our love alive

If you dont' know me at this point

Then I highly doubt you ever will

I really need you to give me

That unconditional love I used to feel

It's no mistaking

We're just erasing

From our hearts and minds

And I know we said let go

But I kept on hanging on

Inside I know it's over

You're really gone

It's killing me

Cause there ain't nothing

That I can do Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself

That you'll come back around

And I try to front like "Oh well"

Each time you let me down

See I can't get over you now

No matter what I do

But baby, baby I stay in love with you

Baby, I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep

It hurts down to my soul

My friends tell me I ain't the same no more

We still need each other

When we stumble and fall

How we gon' act

Like what we had

Ain't nothin' at all now

Hey, what I wanna do is

Ride shotgun next to you

With the top down like we used to

Hit the block

Proud in the SUV

We both know our heart is breaking

Can we learn from our mistakes

I can't last one moment alone

Now go I know

We said let go

But I kept on hanging on

Inside I know it's over

You're really gone

It's killing me

Cause there ain't nothing

That I can do Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself

That you'll come back around

And I try to front like "Oh well"

Each time you let me down

See I can't get over you

Now no matter what I do Baby, baby I stay in love with you

We said let go

But I kept on hanging on

Inside I know it's over

You're really gone

It's killing me

Cause there ain't nothing

That I can do Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself

That you'll come back around

And I try to front like "Oh well"

Each time you let me down

See I can't get over you

Now no matter what I do But baby, baby I stay in love with you I stay in love

Love Oh, I stay in love.

A Movie I Wanna Watch! "4Bia"

[THAI] U 1hr 55mins, SRD, Drama / Comedy / HorrorManeerat Kham-uan, Apinya Sakuljaroensuk, Chermarn Boonyasak, Nuttapong ChatpongDirected by: Parween Purijitpanya, Yongyoot Thongkontoon.

The movie comprises of four different stories of four different lives, directed by four directors.

The first story tells a tale about 'Happiness' where a lonely girl finds companionship with a guy that she knows through phone text.

The second story 'Tit for Tat' depicts the anecdote of a young artiste who is out to make a good-looking portfolio instead of a good movie.

'In The Middle' is more towards a parody of Hollywood movies with bits of humour and lastly, 'Last Fright' is a melodramatic story about a widow and her foe.

My Confession

I have a confession to make. One that concerns you. I've been hiding something from you. Something that I've kept so long. Too long that it is worth nothing now.

I concealed it somewhere. Somewhere so deep. That when I tried to claw it out before. I only made it sink two more feet.

This thing I hid from you. You never realized it was there. This fragile thing you see. Had always been sitting here.

I finally dug it out. I cleansed it as much as I could. I even fixed its' faults. And made it welcoming too.

I doubt it matters that I have it. I have more doubts that you remember. How foolish was I to think you'd look for it. Despite that fact you've never acknowledge it.

I'll let you guess what it is. Something you promised me before. Something you gave me. And stole it right back. Before I had the chance to give you yours.

Can you guess what I went through. To bring it back to you. To bring this little thing. That I've kept hidden from you.

It needs some repairs. I've dropped it along the way. It may have some jagged edges. But I still carried them anyways.

These dirtied nails that clawed my way through. These stains on my clothes are proof I meant it for you. These tiny fragments you see cut inside are only the small things I've sacrificed.

This is my confession. Are you aware of its cry. The faintest sound from you makes it race for the finish line. Please accept my benevolence gift. Before I it becomes a sorrowful goodbye.