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Wednesday, July 30, 2008

July 30th - Happy Birthday Dear Cousin, Abdul Muiz!

Happy Birthday, Muiz!
Semoga panjang umur dan dimurahkan rezeki selalu.

July 30th - Rest In Peace - Allahyarhamah Buntar Bte Hj Osman (Daddy's Lil Sister) *Al-Fatihah*

It may have been the will of the most high. But no matter how hard we may try, we still cannot help to wonder why. It had to be you, the apple of my eye. Of all people that had to so suddenly die? When we remember the love between you and us, most times we just can’t help breaking down to cry. And it is so hard to move on even when my tears dry.

Long before you succumbed and passed on, we did believe you were obviously success prone. For you took the world by storm from the time you were born. And even inspired us to look forward to each new dawn. But now that in the twinkle of an eye you are gone, we feel so empty. We may fail to hang in there all alone. But we’ll try the best we can to stay strong when we mourn and then move on without you, hoping we’ll keep on keeping on.

Bar the times you were bogged down by disease, while you were around here life was near perfect bliss. For we lived our lives to the full as and when we’d please before fate decided that you should suddenly cease.

You are the one we will always miss and now that you are not there to hear this. We will tell you we love you by blowing one more kiss and praying that God will rest your soul in eternal peace.

You'll be missed *sobs*


Allahyarhamah Buntar Bte Hj Osman

30th July 2008

July 30th - 3rd Day Admission - Blood Pressure Increases

Get well soon, Dad.
We love you.
Daddy's blood pressure increased due the news of the death of her lil sister, Allahyarhamah Buntar Bte Hj Osman (48 years old). We were also shocked by the sad news. Dad didnt get to see her as he wasn't allowed to by the nurses *sobs* All he did was cry and I was there with my 3 lil sisters to calm him down.
Was really a TOUGH month for me to bear )'=
May she rest in peace.

July 29th - 2nd Day Admission - After Undergoing Surgery

Alhamdulillah, the surgery went smooth.
Thanks Doctors and Nurses

July 28th - 1st Day Admission - Get Well soon, Daddy )=

Get well soon, Dad.
We love you so much.

July 28th - Sending off my bro for the Asean + 3 Youth Festival in Singapore

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

July 27th - Youth leaders at Asean+3 Youth Festival

Brunei Darussalam will be represented at the Asean+3 Youth Festival (AYF) in Singapore by a delegation of five members consisting of youth leaders.

The team is led by Mohammad Adi Shariman bin Hj Aji, an officer from the Ministry of Culture, Youth and Sports, and the youth leaders are Amhra Farahiya bte Hj Hamdillah, Norliyaty anak Gilly, Dk Mas Dino bte Pg Raden and Md Nizam bin Hj Abd Rahman.

The Asean+3 Youth Festival is organised by the Asean+3 Youth Festival Organising Committee, in collaboration with Singapore's Ministry of Foreign Affairs, for a week, starting from July 28 until August 3.

The AYF is essentially a major event organised by youths for youths, jam-packed with highly interesting programmes which the delegates will find to be enriching, enlightening as well as entertaining, with activities ranging from the serious Youth Forum to the fun-filled Amazing Race, to name a few. The AYF also happens to be one of the initiatives of the East Asia Week and will be held in conjunction with the SHINE Festival.

The weeklong event is expected to attract the participation of over 150 youth leaders from all over the 10 Asean nations.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

July 26th - Happy Birthday NurHafizatul Hazirah Bte Tahiruddin!

Happy birthday, dearest one, Sweet child of my heart!
We've become one family, Of which you are a part.
And so I sing out equally to all of those who are mine by blood or fortune blessed, no more, no less my star!
We are one in love and joy, in fondness and in worth and so as one we celebrate this day, your day of birth!

Lotsa love,
Cher FReD

July 26th, 2008 - Surprise! Birthday Party from The 5B Kiddos!

Thanks my Darjah 5B students and dancers for the surprised birthday party! I really appreciate it. Cher love you all. This is once again a memorable moment for me. And to my colleagues and ex-students, thanks for the lovely hand-made birthday cards!

Friday, July 25, 2008

July 23rd - Just Another Year But Yet Its Still The Same

...*July 23rd*...

..Just another year for me..

I didnt celebrate my birthday but I did spend my day with my choir students @ RTB. We had the rehearsals for the Final Anti-Drugs Choir Competition held on the 24th July 2008 from morning till late noon. Was pretty tiring and with my health condition which was not really good, it made me felt much much terrible.

We were so hungry that we decided to have lunch with the choir students at Yayasan Food Court. It was fun walking on foot from RTB to Yayasan with 20 students ranged between 7 - 9 years of age. Treat them at the Food Court and had some Fun Donuts. The kids enjoyed it so much, so did myself and my two other colleagues. Was pretty chaotic but was a memorable one! Imagined, being with the kids around. Hehe. It was cute! Hehehe. It was once again the best moment that not all could ever experienced.

Right after lunch, we went back to RTB and I met two of my online friends (Brunei Local Artists) namely Aziz and Ak Amilin. Was nice meeting them. We had this "business" to look forward to *hehe* Hope it'll work. It will be FUN! FUN! FUN! Insya-ALLAH. As for the rehearsals, it went well and from there I cud already see the "winner" for the competition and my guess was right. Hehehe. The rehearsals ended around 4pm and we went back to school. Everyone was tired.

As soon as I reached home, I had my shower and went to sleep. I woke up arnd 9pm, remembering that I had to get some breads, eggs, mayo and tuna for the kids' breakfast the next morning. And when I was about to leave, someone rang the doorbell. My dad opened the door and told me that Auntie Sham came.

Auntie Sham is Mulah Mirul's mother (Mulah was someone that I loved with all my heart but GOD loves him more). That was a real surprised! I almost cried. This was the first time that she actually dropped by and came into my house with her daughter, Sa'datul, maid and driver. I was speechless and was holding back my tears. I didnt wanna cry. She has never forgotten my birthday since Mulah passed away )'= that was in 2002.

Every year since then, she never failed to remember and has always give me sumthin on my birthday. Not just my birthday, but in any other formal or informal occasions, she never fails to forget me )'= Its really sumthin pricelss that I dun ever really think I cud ever let go )'= Ive always cried on my birthday eve, wishing and hoping that Mulah was around on my birthday. So much memories that was yet to be fulfilled but I know deep in my heart that "the wish and the hope" will never happen cause its one IMPOSSIBLE mission to be accomplished )'=

Since Ive lost Mulah and with so many heartbreaks, Ive always wondered if I ever will find someone that can really love me for me and accept me as I am )'= I dont really know if there is really A MAN that can really love me as much as Mulah did.

Brown Eyes by Destiny's Child

Secret Garden by Bruce Springsteen

Out of Reach by Gabrielle

These used to be our fave songs and Ive been listening to it since my birthday eve. Ive cried the whole night and I know it was wrong. But sometimes I just cant really help it. I still have the poem he wrote for me )'= (will share it in my next post, Insya-ALLAH)


In Loving Memory
Ak. Amirul Hisham @ Hasan Mubarak bin Pg Hj Hashim
..May he rest in peace and you'll always be in my heart..
Born: 10th May 1983
Died: 28th June 2002